Happy Easter

My Jesus Rose on this here day

My Jesus chose for me to save

Im so thankful for My Jesus Saviour

Im so thankful for His unmerited Favour

He Rose

He Rose 

He Rose Again

So i can live with Him soon once again

I Love you Jesus MY Saviour and Friend

My life to you i commit again

I am thankful for Your unending Grace

And your Faithfulness despite my sinful state

You Sweet Jesus Deserve Our Praise

And Easter is a time we Celebrate

All you are

All you did 

And all you Mean

And all you Bled

Thank you for your Sacrifice and 

Thank you for dying to save me

xxx

Flowers from my Boy

Hello Faithful Readers

Jordan often picks flowers for me from the garden of his own accord,
it's the sweetest thing he does from his generous and loving heart for mommy,
I have often thought that this is just the most beautiful thing and how am I going to preserve these memories...
Then tonight he picked me a flower again it's probably about the 15-20th flower he has picked for me over his 2.5yr lifespan and it came to me,
every time he picks a flower for me from thus say forward I'm going to blog it and Facebook it and now that's how these sweet moments and cherished memories of my little boys heart will be preserved
Oh how I LOVE you Jordan Boy!

God Bless Y'all

Bubba Blue

Bubba Blue we never knew you 
Bubba Blue we never knew

Mamma loved you still 
those weeks she held you 
Those weeks she held you 
She loved you still

We thank God we had you for a moment
For a moment God gave us you

Time was too short 
But we so love you
time was too short
But you are still in our thoughts

Bubba blue mamma still cries for you 
but she knows Jesus had a plan
She knows He has you now
She knows you are in His hands

Rest easy bubba blue
Mamma and daddy will see you soon

For all of you who have ever lost a baby, whether it was very early on, further along or after they had been in your arms for a while, i know that hurt, the love that never leaves for the ones we have lost...

For me God is still good
He is still the Rock on which i stand
And yet will i praise Him

Thank you faithful readers for sharing this journey with me, i appreciate you and i hope that my life story can help to make your life story better in one way or the other

God Bless y'all

Sad times...

Hello Faithful readers

As you can tell have i not been around for a while,

       there are many reasons why, but the biggest is probably sleep depravation and being super tired so when nightfall comes or when            any moment comes that i get to have some downtime i just either sleep or do nothing...

Doing a blogpost just required too much energy and i just didn't have that extra energy to give, i did think of you all a lot but i just couldn't write...

So anyway the other sad sad occurrence in my life was the passing of our family pet... 

We got Sparkey when we first got to Australia and he was a very significant and important part of our lives, we had the boy for 14years from 25th of February 2000 till the 25th of february 2014 and we had to put him down due to old age, pain and not being able to walk anymore, that was only a few days ago...

He was such a special dog, almost not like a dog at all, more like an Angel in fur.

The boy never weed in the house from the day he as born till the day he died even though he couldn't walk in the end.

He was such a HUGE part of the family and has left a HUGE hole is many lives...

This is a photo of Sparkey on the way to the vet on his last day, so super heart breaking.

So Since Sparkey died and a little before that i really fell off the health wagon, i have been eating everything and anything and am not pleased to say that i have put on about 2 kilos :-(

Its not all lost and i am ok because i know that on Monday i am going to just claw my way back to gym and healthy eating and get my mind back again, so anyone out there who feels like encouraging me back into health again please GO AHEAD :-)

Well thats a little about whats happening here in this head, heres to life, friendships and pets that are just not pets at all but brothers and sisters in fur!

God Bless you all

Reflection

Im missing Africa, I'm missing the smells, the freedom of my youth, the family, the beauty, the food, the african sea, the joy in my heart for that place...

The reflection of the day is live in the moment, savour it, Fully engage in it, really cherish it, even the mundane moments...

Because one day you will be wishing for that moment

God Bless y'all

Reflections

Hello there faithful followers, i just want to say thank you to all of you because honestly if it weren't for you i think i would have stopped writing at one stage, but i know you are out there and i know you are reading and i know that you are receiving something from my blog and that makes me happy, that makes this all the more worth it and so i am so very thankful to y'all.

A belated happy christmas to you all and i wish you a very blessed new year as well.

So it is sad to see the end of another year and its sad to pack up all the Christmas decorations and the lovely christmas tree, it is sad that we are not getting younger, and it is sad that life is passing by ever too quickly but then on the flip side

it is a very happy time aswell...

I am so glad that we are into a new year with new aspirations, new beginnings, new babies to welcome, new hobbies to look forward to, new goals, new challenges and a newfound energy in my body and new strength in my soul.

I am so very thankful for the birth of Jesus, the reason for this season, i am thankful that i love Him and more so that He loves me and that i have so much to live for because He was born!

Everyday for the rest of the year i aspire to share a reflection of my day with you, maybe just a sentence, maybe a lot more, maybe a photo and a couple of words or a poem or something that i have reflected on in my day all year through, sometimes it may be a scripture or something the kiddies have done, or something that has lifted my soul, it could be a sad one, a happy one, a nostalgic memory or a snippet of what is going on in my mind, or a recipe or whatever, but it will be something.

 I hope that my reflections will enhance your journey through life a little.

I hope they will help you to feel that this life of a momma is not always easy, it is not always rewarding and it is not always grateful, but it is always important because to these kids, our kids

we are their whole world.

 We mean more to them than we will ever know and we are needed, we are loved and we are VIP's to them, so take heart hard working momma's 

YOU ARE DOING A FABULOUS JOB

and whilst we may feel like we are continuously going through the fire from this motherhood journey lets remember that out of this fire will come gold.

Keep on keeping on

if you feel like it eat that chocolate, eat that pudding, eat that fruit salad and yoghurt plus you dinner (like i did tonight EEEK) But then do try and be healthy again tomorrow, get out and do that aerobics class, take that walk, do the zumba on the wii, clean the backyard, clean the house do whatever exercise you can and don't beat yourself up because if you fail it is not the end of the world but lets strive to win more than we fail and that way results will be inevitable.

God Bless y'all

Trifector!!!

Thats My boy cheering me on what a sweetie.

People im on a roll! I gotta tell you it has taken a very long while and a very bad mindset to get back to where i am today, but im glad i did not give up altogether!

I must say that if you are out there, if you feel you are overweight, if you love food and if you feel like there is absolutely no hope or desire to get back onto the fitness bandwagon you sound like me, if you feel like "whats the point in doing that 30 minute walk once a week" you sound like me, or you might say "i just love food so much, i feel happy when i eat it and it is something i really really enjoy and i cant seem to not go overboard" you sound like me, or "i just have zero motivation to exercise, my life is so busy being mommy and wifey and house mamma the last thing i want to do it try to squeeze exercise in" you sound like me!
Well im here to tell you, NO MATTER HOW HOPELESS YOU FEEL, you can turn it around, i know because i am.

The last three days i have done some awesome sweat inducing walks and i so feel like im on a total roll, i feel motivated and so awesome and now i just dont want to stop!

I went op shopping today because i am a size 14-16 now and i do not want to byt expensive clothes from the normal shops as i need a whole new summer wardrobe at this size... 
I gotta tell you it is very disheartening trying on clothes because i see my fat, it drags me down, and i want results NOW, but the reality is that i did this to myself and i know that i can get back to my awesome size 8-10 because i really want it, i just want to feel Fit again...

Ill tell you though, without people around me motivating me, calling me saying hey you want to go walking i think i would still be slouchy, despondent and unmotivated...

So please, please if you can let people around you know what you are feeling, let them know you want to get fit, particularly those friends of yours that are living the fit life already and ask them to cheer you on and invite you till you say yes, once you start you just might not want to stop.

I still need motivators and i still have the tendancy to slip in to the whats the point its taking so long mindset, but i am feeling so much better now that i have "gotten into exercuse again".
I do still LOVE food, i do still have way to big a portion, i still have a very wicked sweet tooth and can eat way too much cake if its there, but thats my battle, i need to fight it, i will fight it and i will see results!

Keep watching this space

God Bless Y'all