Stashiola

Hello Faithful readers :-)

So this was my stash about a week ago i think, ah time goes so fast could have been 2 weeks...

So there is Raw honey, coconut oil, coconut cream, coconut sugar, organic maple syrup and the most Yummiest thing EVER Cacao powder!

Since this picture my stash has grown a little and i am loving making all these yummy and SUPER beneficial sweets!

So i think i have added coconut flour, oh and of course all the nuts like cashews, pecans, walnuts, almonds, macadamias, sunflower seeds, pumpkin seeds, desiccated coconut, umm thats all i can think of from the couch :-)

I need to get macca powder that would be a good thing I've heard.

Yeah well slowly slowly it will grow and i will be HAPPY!

God Bless y'all

Bubba Blue

Bubba Blue we never knew you 
Bubba Blue we never knew

Mamma loved you still 
those weeks she held you 
Those weeks she held you 
She loved you still

We thank God we had you for a moment
For a moment God gave us you

Time was too short 
But we so love you
time was too short
But you are still in our thoughts

Bubba blue mamma still cries for you 
but she knows Jesus had a plan
She knows He has you now
She knows you are in His hands

Rest easy bubba blue
Mamma and daddy will see you soon

For all of you who have ever lost a baby, whether it was very early on, further along or after they had been in your arms for a while, i know that hurt, the love that never leaves for the ones we have lost...

For me God is still good
He is still the Rock on which i stand
And yet will i praise Him

Thank you faithful readers for sharing this journey with me, i appreciate you and i hope that my life story can help to make your life story better in one way or the other

God Bless y'all

Chocolate fix

Hello Faithful readers

So this was my first chocolate Paleo bar i made and  it was SO YUM! One piece and i was Chocolate fixed for the day. Its all gone i definitely need to make more ASAP.

Jordan loved making them and tasting them and the best part is that i didn't have to stress if he did cause it is all good for him!

Ingredients
1/2 Cup melted coconut oil
4-5 heaped table spoons Cacao powder (less or more depending on your taste)
2 tablespoons honey or agave syrup
1 cup shredded coconut
1 cup chopped dates
1/2 cup almond meal or coarsely chopped almonds
1/2 cup chopped cashews

Combine all dry ingredients well
In a separate bowl combine all wet ingredients well
Mix wet with dry and stir to combine well.

Put into a baking tray lines with baking paper, pat down well to make a compact and hard slice.

Freeze for a few hours and then chop into squares, keep in an airtight container in the freezer or fridge.

I kept mine in the freezer cause it tasted awesome just from the freezer and it would keep for AGES!

Try it and enjoy the benefits on your health

God Bless y'all

Jordan Boy

When i knew i had you my heart skipped a beat

When i felt you growing the secret we just couldn't keep

Imagining your little feet

Imagining your little hands 

Imagining your little heartbeat

Oh we thanked Jesus everyday for this blessing

We were so thrilled to be getting

Nine months went by so fast

And then you were here at last

Our Mighty Jordan 

Our Sweet Boy

Our Lords one

From a Tiny baby you grew too fast

my eyes tear at the thought of times past

I don't know if you will ever know

How much your mommy loves you so

Im Ever so proud of you my boy 

As the days pass on you bring me more and more joy

God has given us a gift in you Jordan Love

You most certainly are a true blessing from above

The thought of sending you off to school

Is just too much on this heart of mine

I want to hold on to you, to your youth, to your life

To these moments when we have all this time...

God has your future

I trust his way

Everyday for you i pray

I am so sorry for the mistakes ill make

Im so sorry if i cause you heartache

Im sorry for my anger, frustration and impatience

I was trying, believe me i was

But life takes its toll and sometimes i was lost...

I pray this prayer often

for you Jordan Boy

Lord What i do right multiply and bring joy

But Lord what i do wrong erase and help my boy

Give your heart to Jesus child

He is the only way that will make you smile

Life goes much to fast my child

But i pray that i will be here a while

I love you more than words can say

You are my Jordan

My Jordan Boy

Paleo WHAT?

Hello there faithful readers

So I've taken a turn, i tell you i did not expect it, i am very grateful for it and i most certainly love the results that come with this change :-)

So Paleo hey WHAT THE, thats what i thought when my brother and sister in law said they were going Paleo, i laughed at them and kept calling them palaeontologists, i thought it was a HUGE joke and so RIDICULOUS mind you, who would want to do that when you could eat SWEET Sugary delicious treats and greasy stodgy Bad food that tasted sooooo good!
Even though when i ate sugary stuff id LOVE it while i was eating it but soon after id be feeling so bad about myself, id feel like a failure AGAIN, feel depressed, down and so deflated...

Anyway long story short a friend of mine invited me to a wellness talk and i said sure and then couldn't go, so she sad these talks happen all the time and she'd ask me again and i said sure, anyway they had one in my suburb and i went and needless to say it changed my life and i am so thankful that God led me there.

The reason i could not get into this "heathy eating stuff" before was that basically i was addicted to sugar and the thought of not being able to have that stuff just felt too hard so i just kept going, but after i went to this talk i was opened up to a whole new world of healthy sweets that taste super yummy and that only have things in them that are going to benefit your body in one way or another.

So anyway since my turn about 3-4 days ago yes recent i know, I've been trying all these new sweets and then one of my bestest friends of old Bidemi Coker said "girl why don't you blog this stuff so we can learn how to do it too", so thats what i am gonna do, hope you enjoy this part of my journey with me :-)

Plus if you have any great whole food, clean eating, Paleo recipes please do share!

Oh so basically this Paleo thing is just trying to eat more foods that are alive, that are beneficial and that are organic, pesticide free etc, I'm at the beginning of my journey but am loving the journey small steps.

This is Jordie and i having our first ever smoothie in the morning it was 

Coconut milk (Antiviral and Antibacterial, fights infections)

Almonds (Lower cholesterol, reduce risk of cancer and heart disease)

A banana (Overcome depression, reduce PMS, improve your mood and relieve anaemia)

Cacao powder (Reduce risk of cancer, promote cardiovascular health, anti depressant, promotes relaxation and stimulates endorphins)

jarrah honey (Very high in Antioxidants, fights helicobacter pylori)

So there you have it lots of good stuff in here and of course best part was that

It was SUPER YUMMY!!

Lost my way

Hi there faithful readers

I had so much joy when i started my blog, i was loving every minute of writing on here, i really had energy and zeal and my blog felt alive!

Sad to say but i realise that it has become lifeless,
boring, 
same ol same ol 
and altogether just not at all what i intended it to be.

I also know why...

Simply put, its because i lost my way...

I started this blog for me, i wanted it to be an outlet for me to record my journey of life,and to be able to look back on it in 2, 3, 4 or even 20 years time and enjoy it all over again.
If what i wrote could help anyone along the way then that was great and a huge bonus for me, i wanted this to be a place where i could come to unwind, to share my stories about all that is me and my life and my family and my journey.

Sad thing is that instead  of all that it became a burden, a burden because it became a place where i wrote about a subject that i am no expert in, a subject that weighs me down, a subject that is absolutely lovely to share and to write about but instead of just being that this very subject became the b all and end all of what i was writing about and it swallowed up my blog...
A weight loss battle, a tiresome, energy sucking, and downright depressing thing that i fight day by day, this place, my place of rest and solitude and reflection became a place where i was trying to do what i could to help people in an area that i am not entirely winning myself, for me this became a discouraging place to be because all i did was talk about how i was winning and then how i was losing and it became really boring and really dead...

Aside from that battle I can't really explain what my blog became, because there was much more behind just the fact that i kept talking tirelessly about the same thing and in the same way, 
there was also an element of "maybe i can use it to make money being a stay at home mom" that really stole the joy out of it fast...
Anyway i can't really explain what it became all i know is it became something i didn't like or enjoy anymore and that is going to change!

This blog is no longer going to be about striving to please others, or to attract others, or to outdo others, this blog is going back to basics, it is going back to being about my journey of life, all that i am doing, achieving, not achieving, and just a space where i can come to relax, to chat, to record life's in's and outs and a place where i can just be me...

Im sorry to me and to you all for getting caught up in people pleasing, over achieving,and who knows what else, just for not making this what i started it for and for enjoying the ride.
However i am thankful that i picked it up and i am looking forward to the Journey ahead.

Jesus is my cornerstone, the rock on which i stand and i am grateful to Him for His presence, His guidance and His direction in my life.

God Bless Y'all

Sad times...

Hello Faithful readers

As you can tell have i not been around for a while,

       there are many reasons why, but the biggest is probably sleep depravation and being super tired so when nightfall comes or when            any moment comes that i get to have some downtime i just either sleep or do nothing...

Doing a blogpost just required too much energy and i just didn't have that extra energy to give, i did think of you all a lot but i just couldn't write...

So anyway the other sad sad occurrence in my life was the passing of our family pet... 

We got Sparkey when we first got to Australia and he was a very significant and important part of our lives, we had the boy for 14years from 25th of February 2000 till the 25th of february 2014 and we had to put him down due to old age, pain and not being able to walk anymore, that was only a few days ago...

He was such a special dog, almost not like a dog at all, more like an Angel in fur.

The boy never weed in the house from the day he as born till the day he died even though he couldn't walk in the end.

He was such a HUGE part of the family and has left a HUGE hole is many lives...

This is a photo of Sparkey on the way to the vet on his last day, so super heart breaking.

So Since Sparkey died and a little before that i really fell off the health wagon, i have been eating everything and anything and am not pleased to say that i have put on about 2 kilos :-(

Its not all lost and i am ok because i know that on Monday i am going to just claw my way back to gym and healthy eating and get my mind back again, so anyone out there who feels like encouraging me back into health again please GO AHEAD :-)

Well thats a little about whats happening here in this head, heres to life, friendships and pets that are just not pets at all but brothers and sisters in fur!

God Bless you all