Rough night!

Man talk about a rough night last night, first mistake was staying up late doing blog stuff, not realizing that the little ones were going to give me a run for my money all night long! Firstly firecracker my 2 year old was up about 4 times with what seemed to be a fever, because he was really burning up and he was shaking from heat to toe, poor little dude :( 
If im completely honest though and im not proud of saying this, all i could think was "PLEASE PLEASE just go back to sleep now because im SUPER exhausted, that lasted all night till he decided he wanted to come into our bed which was not going to happen because of Jesse being in our bedroom and easily woken, all till daddy had to end up sleeping on the couch with him (thank God for daddy!) I seriously applaud and take my hat of to single moms you guys are such CHAMPIONS! 
That wasnt the end of it because then the other little man was up a ridiculous about of times as well, and apart from being awake alot he was also really hard to settle every time he woke too.
Needless to say all of this made for a very exhausting and very moody and exhausting night...

I am so so so looking forward to little Jesse Bear sleeping through the night, but at this point i just cant see the light at the end of the tunnel because apart from moving him into his own room im not sure what else to do at the moment...

The reason Jesse is still in our room is that we happen to live in a lovely but super tiny 3 bedroom one bathroom house. 
It was ideal when we had just one baby because Jordan had his own room and we had a study and then our room, over the course of time though the study became a junk room sadly because our stuff just seems to have babies and grow more stuff!! 
Then we had another gorgeous baby boy and so he needed a room, but we cannot give him a room because the study/ junk room cannot be emptied because there is no where to put the STUFF GRR

So Hubby decided to build a HUGE shed out the back which is lovely because we have a really big yard and have enough space to do it and still have play area. As you can imagine there is a catch, hmm, the catch is that hubby decided to build it himself to save money which is fab because i have a very handy husband but he is also a very time poor husband (2 bouncing boys, a full time job, general home and garden chores etc) and so our shed is still not built...
So that means that little man Jesse is still in our bedroom and he is turning 6 months in 3 days time NOT IDEAL, and not what he really needs either, long story short i think this is why he is still not sleeping through the night and why we had such a Rough night :-(

I just pray that when Jesse does get into his own room that his sleep issues will resolve.

What do you all reckon??

God Bless you all 

Here's to a better night tonight :-)

I'm in a state

So here are the revealing photos of the state I've gotten myself into, I'm not proud of it and I'm disappointed that I let myself get here but honestly I am really hooked on food at the moment...
I am breastfeeding but I really don't know if that's a good enough explanation for my hunger because I do get really hungry... I really need to start making the right food choices and I do find that hard because my sweet tooth seems insatiable any tips on how to curb this??? 

An uphill battle

So this is me, me at my heaviest, me after having two beautiful baby boys, me fighting An uphill battle with my , this is where my journey from flab to fitness begins so please join me as I fight towards fitness, let's do this thing. 
Here's to seeing success one decision at a time, one choice at a time and one day at a time.
My life is busy, my vice is food and my motivation  towards skinnydom and fitness is extremely low.
Maybe it's the sleep deprivation or the ups and downs of being a VIP in my household or just plain laziness I don't know,  but all I know is that NOW I AM READY so fitness here we come.