Enjoy Life

Hello Faithful readers

From Frustration to Freedom, just exactly how i feel 

Im so glad that i don't think of food 24/7 anymore and can start to see life and my kids and my husband and my house, actually see these things and love them and appreciate them and experience them, such joy.

I still have a long way to go to get to where i want to be but i am thoroughly enjoying the journey and I'm just taking one step at a time into the life that i wanna live.

An example of how far I've come, we had some friends over today for a playdate, me about 4-6 months ago even a year to two years ago would have been STRESSING to the MAX, panicking about every misplaced toy, watching every move each child was making waiting for them do do something wrong, watching the food drop to the floor and feeling the heat rising within, i would have been such a nervous wreck by the end of it and not enjoyed a SINGLE minute of it at all...

But today a Completely different story, i felt relaxed in the chaos, i felt at peace with the noise and the tantrums and the mess and the beauty that is children, i could enjoy spending time with my dear friend and at the same time manage the children and not have one moment of panic or fluster or anger this is such a special way to enjoy life, and i can really appreciate it because i have been on the other side of this coin and its devastating, but now i can live in harmony with life and just be present in the moment...

I know that i am still miles away from the wonderful person id love to be, i want to reclaim the years i have lost with my hubby and i wanna walk the road to Amazing with him, here i have lots of work to do due to the mayhem i have created in our relationship due to my unstable behaviour, anger outbursts, irrational thoughts, harsh words etc etc, but i know that even that hurt can heal and i know that as i become the best me through Jesus Christ my Lord, my new food journey, LOTS of water and exercise everyday we will see the Sunshine after the Stormy season we have experienced and i am so Looking forward to those awesome days ahead!

I Know I am walking in to BETTER and i am so Thrilled

Walk with me and Cheer me on

God Bless Y'all

Flowers from my Boy

Hello Faithful Readers

Jordan often picks flowers for me from the garden of his own accord,
it's the sweetest thing he does from his generous and loving heart for mommy,
I have often thought that this is just the most beautiful thing and how am I going to preserve these memories...
Then tonight he picked me a flower again it's probably about the 15-20th flower he has picked for me over his 2.5yr lifespan and it came to me,
every time he picks a flower for me from thus say forward I'm going to blog it and Facebook it and now that's how these sweet moments and cherished memories of my little boys heart will be preserved
Oh how I LOVE you Jordan Boy!

God Bless Y'all

Come ALIVE

Hello Faithful readers

Todays reflection is that you have got to get yourself a hobby that you totally love, it makes you come ALIVE!

I have discovered that i love baking and decorating cupcakes, i can sit there for hours with my paintbrushes, edible glue, fondant and various other contraptions and just tinker away and it really brings my soul to life (Those sparkly ruby hearts are a creation i produced tonight).

A hobby that you love will take you to a place of happiness, creativity and energy.

I am grateful that i get to pursue mine and look forward to hearing what hobbies you lot have found yourself into, so write a comment to  me I'm hanging out to hear all about how it makes you feel.

Here is another pic of a creation i did for a project i have for tomorrow, after the cupcakes are done and decorated ill post a pic

God Bless y'all

Act Belong Commit

Ive always heard that slogan, ive seen the tv adverts and ive thought, hmm that sounds good, wish that was me, wish i was acting belonging and committing but to tell you the truth i just dont feel like it or know where to start...

Then the government gave me a gift, a rather large gift infact they gave me the biggest and most beautiful gift anyone ever could...

They gave me my mind back, my sane and chemically balanced mind back.

I think i have spoken long and often about the healthy life challenge incentive that they have funded in my shire, i am now just over halfway through the program and have lost 29cm all round in total, and 600g of fat, i know that it does not sound like much, but let me tell you it has changed my life.

I feel like a better mommy, because i am actually getting out of the house every morning, that means my kids get to socialise in creche for an hour or so then i take them to the park and that is the highlight of the day, i have more energy, more patience, and im just happier.

I feel like a better wife, simply because i can think straight now, i can actually not just get angry at every little thing and just be a better friend and therefore we can have a better marriage.

I feel like a better house mamma, man i even cleaned my windows in the kitchen and lounge room a few days ago, i feel like i can plan a cleaning regime, and actually get it done, doing 3 loads of washing a day doesn't feel like an insurmountable chore anymore and i dont feel like everything i do when it comes to house chores is just so emotionally and physically impossible to get on top of.

Please if you are struggling with weight, and if you are struggling with a fuzzy mind, a mind that is angry or just feels not quite right, or if you are just not a happy person, then please please please

ACT- get involved in something that you enjoy, choose something emotional and something physical and get out there and start doing it.

BELONG- actually get into a group or an organisation and then belong to it.

COMMIT- then commit to it, stick to it and see your life change.

If there is anyone out there who needs to talk, who needs some help or advice or just a chat, please e mail me or message me, id love to help you along your journey.

God Bless you 

In The business!!

Hey there faithful readers we are in the Business now, i got my laptop today and OH WHAT FUN that was, i tell you i was even getting  sweaty palms going into the apple store thats how excited i was, Crazy Fan, Umm Thats a YES!

So i got the 13" Retina Mac Book Pro and i am really loving it already, a little to get used to seeing i have been a pc girl up till now... I am just really struggling to see how to get the sidebar up, it is very hit and miss at the moment with that but ill get there.

Any Mac fans out there know how to do it??

So let me tell you it was a bit of a nasty weekend when it comes to flab busting cause we had our grandparents 65th wedding anniversary yesterday, it was so lovely, so inspirational to see a marriage last these days...

Lots of eating and delicious puddings nom nom nom, then today we went to my moms and she made yummy doughnuts so nom nom nom again, and no exercise, but back to it tomorrow, what to make for dinner tomorrow i have chicken thighs defrosted, any ideas??

so nice that i can actually see now without it being really straining on my eyes yippee, anyhoo, this was a totally random post, but heres to seeing a lot more of me now!

God Bless y'all