Enjoy Life

Hello Faithful readers

From Frustration to Freedom, just exactly how i feel 

Im so glad that i don't think of food 24/7 anymore and can start to see life and my kids and my husband and my house, actually see these things and love them and appreciate them and experience them, such joy.

I still have a long way to go to get to where i want to be but i am thoroughly enjoying the journey and I'm just taking one step at a time into the life that i wanna live.

An example of how far I've come, we had some friends over today for a playdate, me about 4-6 months ago even a year to two years ago would have been STRESSING to the MAX, panicking about every misplaced toy, watching every move each child was making waiting for them do do something wrong, watching the food drop to the floor and feeling the heat rising within, i would have been such a nervous wreck by the end of it and not enjoyed a SINGLE minute of it at all...

But today a Completely different story, i felt relaxed in the chaos, i felt at peace with the noise and the tantrums and the mess and the beauty that is children, i could enjoy spending time with my dear friend and at the same time manage the children and not have one moment of panic or fluster or anger this is such a special way to enjoy life, and i can really appreciate it because i have been on the other side of this coin and its devastating, but now i can live in harmony with life and just be present in the moment...

I know that i am still miles away from the wonderful person id love to be, i want to reclaim the years i have lost with my hubby and i wanna walk the road to Amazing with him, here i have lots of work to do due to the mayhem i have created in our relationship due to my unstable behaviour, anger outbursts, irrational thoughts, harsh words etc etc, but i know that even that hurt can heal and i know that as i become the best me through Jesus Christ my Lord, my new food journey, LOTS of water and exercise everyday we will see the Sunshine after the Stormy season we have experienced and i am so Looking forward to those awesome days ahead!

I Know I am walking in to BETTER and i am so Thrilled

Walk with me and Cheer me on

God Bless Y'all

Stashiola

Hello Faithful readers :-)

So this was my stash about a week ago i think, ah time goes so fast could have been 2 weeks...

So there is Raw honey, coconut oil, coconut cream, coconut sugar, organic maple syrup and the most Yummiest thing EVER Cacao powder!

Since this picture my stash has grown a little and i am loving making all these yummy and SUPER beneficial sweets!

So i think i have added coconut flour, oh and of course all the nuts like cashews, pecans, walnuts, almonds, macadamias, sunflower seeds, pumpkin seeds, desiccated coconut, umm thats all i can think of from the couch :-)

I need to get macca powder that would be a good thing I've heard.

Yeah well slowly slowly it will grow and i will be HAPPY!

God Bless y'all

Sad times...

Hello Faithful readers

As you can tell have i not been around for a while,

       there are many reasons why, but the biggest is probably sleep depravation and being super tired so when nightfall comes or when            any moment comes that i get to have some downtime i just either sleep or do nothing...

Doing a blogpost just required too much energy and i just didn't have that extra energy to give, i did think of you all a lot but i just couldn't write...

So anyway the other sad sad occurrence in my life was the passing of our family pet... 

We got Sparkey when we first got to Australia and he was a very significant and important part of our lives, we had the boy for 14years from 25th of February 2000 till the 25th of february 2014 and we had to put him down due to old age, pain and not being able to walk anymore, that was only a few days ago...

He was such a special dog, almost not like a dog at all, more like an Angel in fur.

The boy never weed in the house from the day he as born till the day he died even though he couldn't walk in the end.

He was such a HUGE part of the family and has left a HUGE hole is many lives...

This is a photo of Sparkey on the way to the vet on his last day, so super heart breaking.

So Since Sparkey died and a little before that i really fell off the health wagon, i have been eating everything and anything and am not pleased to say that i have put on about 2 kilos :-(

Its not all lost and i am ok because i know that on Monday i am going to just claw my way back to gym and healthy eating and get my mind back again, so anyone out there who feels like encouraging me back into health again please GO AHEAD :-)

Well thats a little about whats happening here in this head, heres to life, friendships and pets that are just not pets at all but brothers and sisters in fur!

God Bless you all

Reflections

Hello there faithful followers, i just want to say thank you to all of you because honestly if it weren't for you i think i would have stopped writing at one stage, but i know you are out there and i know you are reading and i know that you are receiving something from my blog and that makes me happy, that makes this all the more worth it and so i am so very thankful to y'all.

A belated happy christmas to you all and i wish you a very blessed new year as well.

So it is sad to see the end of another year and its sad to pack up all the Christmas decorations and the lovely christmas tree, it is sad that we are not getting younger, and it is sad that life is passing by ever too quickly but then on the flip side

it is a very happy time aswell...

I am so glad that we are into a new year with new aspirations, new beginnings, new babies to welcome, new hobbies to look forward to, new goals, new challenges and a newfound energy in my body and new strength in my soul.

I am so very thankful for the birth of Jesus, the reason for this season, i am thankful that i love Him and more so that He loves me and that i have so much to live for because He was born!

Everyday for the rest of the year i aspire to share a reflection of my day with you, maybe just a sentence, maybe a lot more, maybe a photo and a couple of words or a poem or something that i have reflected on in my day all year through, sometimes it may be a scripture or something the kiddies have done, or something that has lifted my soul, it could be a sad one, a happy one, a nostalgic memory or a snippet of what is going on in my mind, or a recipe or whatever, but it will be something.

 I hope that my reflections will enhance your journey through life a little.

I hope they will help you to feel that this life of a momma is not always easy, it is not always rewarding and it is not always grateful, but it is always important because to these kids, our kids

we are their whole world.

 We mean more to them than we will ever know and we are needed, we are loved and we are VIP's to them, so take heart hard working momma's 

YOU ARE DOING A FABULOUS JOB

and whilst we may feel like we are continuously going through the fire from this motherhood journey lets remember that out of this fire will come gold.

Keep on keeping on

if you feel like it eat that chocolate, eat that pudding, eat that fruit salad and yoghurt plus you dinner (like i did tonight EEEK) But then do try and be healthy again tomorrow, get out and do that aerobics class, take that walk, do the zumba on the wii, clean the backyard, clean the house do whatever exercise you can and don't beat yourself up because if you fail it is not the end of the world but lets strive to win more than we fail and that way results will be inevitable.

God Bless y'all

Keep on keeping on

So now that my healthy life challenge time is up and it is up to me to do what i need to do to stay in shape i have been trying, i went to sh'bam and Zumba on monday, did body balance on tuesday, then on Christmas day unfortunately didn't do any exercise, boxing day nothing, today nothing eeeeek really i wanted to go today but we had to go and see papa race a v8...

So yeah don't want to make a habit of it though but it seems a bit impossible to get there during this lovely time of year, always a catch up to do.

Apart from missing three days of any exercise I've been eating quite festively to say the least, trifles, ice cream, chocolate balls, food food food and I'm truly grateful for how fortunate i am but i need to get back into the swing of things asap

So all I'm saying is that if like me you have had a rubbish time of exercise and eating during this great time of year then don't panic, just get through this time and get back into exercise and eating well, even if you feel like the weight is not shedding fast enough please keep going because slowly but surely it will go and you will see results and it WILL all be worth it!

God Bless Y'all

Merry Christmas